Yesterday I was grumbly. Mostly because I had to take the LAST of our money and deposit it into another bank to pay our October bills... And then there is no more. How could this happen? Why couldn't that client pay us the large sum of money he owes. Now we have no money left in the account and can only pay ourselves half of the regular salary we typically pay ourselves. I was gripey... Didn't Heavenly Father know that we needed some help here? Couldn't he see that we could use a placement or two?
As I drove to the bank downtown, I realized I would need money for a parking meter. We had used the last of the car change to buy Dallin a water after practice last week. I have no money, I thought grumpily. Kind of out of habit, I said a quick, half-felt prayer. "Heavenly Father, bless that I can find a space where the meter is already paid, cuz I can't afford a parking ticket." Then I went back to thinking grumbling, griping thoughts of how we might lose the house (OK, so I was looking down the road...), what we could sell, etc. I pulled in front of the bank and started digging around the car for any loose change. Eventually I came up with a dime and a nickel and hoped they would be enough to get me in the bank and back.
Without looking at the meter, I deposited the dime, then glanced up to see how much time that would allot me. The meter read 19:00. Heavenly Father had heard my grumbly prayer.
I can't believe how much He loves me, I thought as I crossed the street and started up the ramp to the bank. As that thought went through my head, I felt His love come over me. The spirit was so strong. The next thought that went through my head (and it was not my own thought) was "And He is aware of your financial situation." Again, I felt washed by the Spirit and His love. Such a blessing that was for me that day. A strong and overwhelming witness that I am a child of Heavenly Father, who loves me individually and knows what is going on in my life. He is aware... so I don't need to spend useless time worrying about it. He knows... He will help when the time is right.
I love the gift of the Holy Ghost.
